B+'s, 98's, and its almost summerrrr

I kinda took a trip off the deep end the other day. It was sad. I had long awaited my final paper grade for ENC 1101 and was about to die of the anticipation build up! I had worked long and hard on a paper I was very proud of. To be totally honest I had gotten a tad cocky and truly believed I was going to receive a high A. Well, needless to say, I was knocked down. Totally and completely crushed. I had been checking my email like crazy waiting for that grade. Always holding my breath when I had a message only to be disappointed. It finally arrived Sunday May 3, 2009. Yea, I was obsessing. I held my breath and tried to calm the nervous butterflies in my stomach as I scrolled through to find the grade. There, on the last page and the bottom, it seemed to stand out among the other letters and words. It was like a Scarlet letter bringing shame upon my whole paper. It seemed to laugh and stare at me. It was taunting really. An 88 B. Seriously. I about died right there. Tears stung at my eyes and threatened to pour over, so I stayed strong, seeing how I was surrounded by people in a van. Everyone tried to be encouraging saying it was good, but the thing is, I felt like I was settling. Obviously something could have been better. Obviously it wasnt A material. It about crushed my dreams. I always thought writing was my thing, but now I am seeing it differently. I sort of developed a complex int that moment. I had wanted an A so bad. But the funny about this is I look at it now differently. Yea sure I am totally disappointed in not getting an A, but a B+ is good. There is a reason I got that grade. I truly believe it was to humble me. I admit I had gotten cocky in my writing. It was a good paper though. I still believe that. Anyway, I came out of Writing 101 with a B+. Totally unexpected. I also had a B+ in public speaking. Im okay with that. The best part about it all is my Algebra II honors grade. I have always struggled to do well in math and wow is all i can now say. I am making a 98! This is almost a 100 btw. Haha, I am sure you all realized that.

PLUS--It is almost summer time. School is so hard to focus on right now. I am having quite the hard time. For real.

What is great is.... God is renewing a passion in my life that I had felt was slipping away. I felt a sort of drifting feeling I guess, but He brought me back! (: Where would I be without my amazing Jesus? I really want to hunger after Him more though. I want one pure and holy passion and I want a magnificant obsession with Him. Seriosuly. He is such an amazing God. He has blessed me with so much. I am blessed beyond measure. I truly am. Okay, now I am getting sappy. Sorry about that. I just get excited about my Jesus.

So yea, this has been a long one and I didnt even blog about Gala. My bad. Long story short....It was greatttt!!!!

Hope you didnt get bored by this. I love you! Stay close to Jesus this week and be passionate for him!

Much love and peace

Bethany caroline

P.S--Star Trek was awesome

P.P.S--Spades with my besties is the bestest. lol.

Words.

they are so powerful. seriously. has anyone ever really stopped to think about the importance of their words? not usually. we say things and throw words around never really thinking about what is coming out of our mouth. the bible commands us in Ephesians to not let any unwholesome talk come from our mouths. our words affect us so much more than we realize. so many times people do not take time to think about what is coming out of their mouths. one of my favorite facebook bumper stickers says "My problem is my mouth opens when i think." This is something that is funny and made me laugh but it is so true. Do you think before you speak? Watch what you say and think about your words. they are much more powerful than you think.

on other notes here is a tentative schedule for my summer:

Super Summer

Costa Rica

Tennessee

and LOTS of beach time

Be jealous. haha Jk.

Buuuut anyway.

Finals for my college classes are over. So much relief. The year is winding down. It is almost summer time. How do YOU plan to impact the kingdom this summer season? Feel free to discuss! (:

Love you all

Much love and peace.

~Bethany

It has indeed been a very long time and I have been looking forward to blogging about my Spring Break vacation! It was a blast. The Stockdale-Woodall clan pulled out last Friday around five to head to Little Talbot Island, just outside of Jacksonville. Over the course of the weekend I got to spend time with the whole crew. Momma, daddy, Emily, Brian, Hadley, Avery, and of course little Ben-Jammin. We had a blast spending a day at the beach and having fun in the sun. We enjoyed the camp fire as the temperatures plunged lower and listened to Jack Johnson, John Mayer, James Taylor, Norah Jones, and Bob Marley. (A.K.A the greatest playlist ever) We simply kicked back in "the real Florida" It was great. After a long enjoyable weekend with my family we said goodbye to the Woodall portion as the headed back to the matropolis of Starke. Monday was cooler so we spent the day close to the sight before heading back to Starke ourselves, just for the evening. I got the awesome experiance of going back to MSBC and ejoyed Doc. Reid and the Chad Lister band. We got an addition after Monday. My amazing friend Shelby Ashley tagged along Monday night and we had a blast. With the cooler days the four of us (mom, dad, shelby, me) played lots of Spades. I am now addicted. Haha. When it finally warmed up we all spent two days at the beach. Ahh. I am tanned! (: I am so very happy about that! lol. Anyway. It was an amazing trip. I truly needed that relaxation. Life had been getting pretty fast and I am glad I got the time to sit back. I really got to soak in God's creation and He made himself very real to me. I love when He does that. But yea. AMAZING spring break. Hope I'm not overusing that word.

In the next week I would really like to blog on the power of words. So keep your eyes out for another blog very soon.

It's back to the daily grind and tomorrow is Tuesday which means very long day for me.

Hope you all enjoyed!

Much love and peace!

Bethanyycarolinee

I love youuu!

A long long time ago....

I wrote a blog. Yea, I know. A REALLY long time ago. My life has been so busy these days that I hardly have time to sit and blog about the craziness. Things have been good. The fair was fun, but I am glad it is over! Maybe I can breath now. But just as i get the fair done school starts working overtime and I am having to put 100 and ten percent into that. It is tough. College is kicked it into overdrive but I am working hard. So much to do in so little time. I am getting behind and that CANNOT happen. But I didnt blog to rant. I blogged to blog. Lol.

I have been racking my brain to find random stuff to talk about but when you think about it, how random is it? The thought just has to strike me at the right moment. So tonight I think I will talk about randomness in its self. I have had many a discussion on randomness and just why it is random. Like little men in hot air balloons floating down into your back yard. (this is humor a select few will get). But the thing is....who decides random? I mean the word really gets abused today. Its like sometimes, it isnt random YET the word is misused. Some things are random. Like say a purple elephant with giant reading glasses on. Wanna know something weird? I KNOW where you can find one of those! THAT is random. Not the stupid picture albums on facebook that are all like "this is sooo random". I mean come on. After two million pics of yourself it ceases to be random. So why label it random? Ugg, just thinking about it is annoying.


I came across the statement on a piece of flair on facebook that said "I'm not as random as you think I salad." That is an example of random. It doesnt fit and it doesnt go. It is totally spuratic and hodgepodge (other words that can be used in place of random). If someone spouts off a trivial fact it is not nessecarrily random. It is trivia knowlegde. See what I mean? Why does this society misuse random? Come on people? How random can we all truly get? It is ridiculous.


Dont get me started on "awkward". lol.


In other notes-- dont go see the house on the left. it is ridiculous and pointless.

Watch Twilight! It is out on DVD.

I am tired but I cannot sleep but I wont bore you with my sleep deprived ramblings anymore. I will keep this updated more often I promise!

And remember!!!! Much love and peace! (:

Far to much time has passed since I blogged. I missed the familiar feeling that blogging brought into my life. Haha. I have been under some major pressure. Stress does not even begin to cover it. The pageant of course was a success and totally worth the small amount of extra strain put on my life. But boy did it wear me out. and today. Man, today was so crazy. It started with your run of the mill Marshall is a slave driver thing and continued on to an Algebra quiz that I had no clue how to do. The rest of the day was a blur with no break. Even Chorus and journalism was crazy. After school I got hair and makeup done by Sarah Lee and headed straight to Thornton photography to take my pageant pictures. Then straight to church to play. What a day. Church was emotional of course. As many know, my family is no longer going to be attending MSBC and it really is a bitter-sweet thing. I will miss my church and tonight was an obvious showing of that. It was hard being with all those people, each and every one special in there own way. I am going to miss each and every one of them more then anyone could ever know. Each person at MSBC has made such an impact on me--each leaving a footprint. I do not regret a single moment spent there. Each day at MSBC taught me something and it is truly a place I will never forget and somewhere I will routinley return to. I love it. Im gonna miss it, but I am ready to see what God has in store for our future at Hibernia. It is a big leap of faith but I am ready to jump. Just pray a lot. (:

So, yea. I am a princess. I am beyond happy about this too. Saturday I was honored to win Miss Bradford-Union Strawberry Princess. (: This Friday starts the fair and I will be there every night fulfilling my duties as princess. I am so excited. I still cant believe all this is happening to me. It is euphoric and just a few days ago I felt like everything was falling apart and now I feel so right. Things have begun to fall into place. I am happy with the way things are. I know God has a plan for me and I am just seeking him right now hoping he reveals himself to me. Until then. I'm living my life. (: Hope you all have an amazing week and a little bit of my sunshine can rub off. Love you all.

Much love and peace.

BeThAnY!

Mobile uploads

Life everyday is being made easier by technology. I wrote a paper, today, about technology and how it is crippling us, but i have to admit, I love it. It is so cool. Although it hates me, I enjoy it so very much.
Used to (back like five months ago) I would have to take my digital camera with me everywhere if i wanted to document something then uploading to facebook and myspace was the biggest hassle in the world. it would take forever and half the time didnt work. So finally I quit uploading pics altogether. I would let people tag me and that was it.
When I got my phone (Sam) I added the FacebookMobile App and saw that you could simply upload pictures directly from your mobile phone. This made my life. Now I can take pictures wherever and whenever I want and put them on Facebook and Myspace for all to see. It is such an amazing invention and it causes me no wasted time at all!
I am loving technology more now than ever. I believe it is because of my recent obession with Apple and Mac. My iTouch is simply fabulous. I am in L-O-V-E. I am amazed that I can download music right there on the device. (:
BUT ANYWAY. I think I am going to get back to enjoying Ben and Jerry's half baked, and sit and hope someone decides to read this mindlessness. Goodnight to all you out there.
much love and peace.

Bethany"ula"

Manic monday

I hate Mondays. Today wasnt bad or anything. Mondays are just no fun. I mean seriously. Why cant we just tack Monday onto the end of the weekend so we can all hate on Tuesdays for a while. Mondays are getting a bad reputation. I feel bad for them sometime. Tuesdays are no fun either. I have school ALL day long. We are talking 9 to 9:45 at night!
Anyway, tonight I had the first night of pageant week. It went well I would like to say. Good stuff. I am just totally tired now. It was a long day. Very long. I am looking forward to a good night sleep. Really. Right now I am enjoying a nice warm evening and some Secret Life. Good night. I would stay up late because I am skipping tomorrow but I dont think I can stay up much longer. Haha. I am just looking forward to a nice day at home tomorrow. Don't you just love FCAT season? Sorry underclassman. I am quite excited. Because of you guys and standardized testing I get to spend the day at home tomorrow. I see so much justice in that. Haha. Hey I went through it. It is your turn. I havent slept in, in so long I can already taste the whole waking up when i want thing. I deserve it. I am sure of this. I havent woken up when I wanted in so long it is crazy. I need this so bad though. I mean my life is going 100 miles an hour. I never have time to do anything but study study study. School is my life. I am quite tired of that. I wish school would spontaniously combust. Really. I mean all I know is that it is taking over the world. But I wont continue to rant about school. That is a downer. I am going to go though. I have nothing left to say. Haha. So night night all. (: Enjoy your evenings and stay warm! Much love and peace.

--Bethany--

:)